Friday, December 6, 2013

Sexy Bitch

I have body issues. I don’t have a problem saying that. I have lost a great deal of weight and things just got a bit weird because my body stopped being my own in some ways. I don’t mind talking about this—it is just a fact of my life at the moment—but people tend to take this talk as me being critical of myself, or they think that I do not think that I am attractive.

They are wrong on both counts.

I talk plainly and I do not have a lot of filters, so if this is an issue in my life right now I will talk about it, especially when it is relevant to the conversation. I am not critical of my body—it is what it is right now and it will change and that is that. I get annoyed when it doesn’t go where I want it to go, but I am still quite happy with the fact that the weight is gone.

As far as seeing myself as attractive—I guess it is true, I don’t really—attractive is too mild a word. I am a sexy bitch. I know this. I radiate energy, and joy, and love, and warmth, and confidence, and sex, and I am beautiful. I don't have a problem saying that either :-)

That doesn’t mean that my self-esteem can’t take a blow or two once in awhile, or that sensitivities don’t arise—I am still human. But at the end of the day—always—I really do love myself.

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